I used to love going out sooo much, But where am such a hefalump now am dreading it, i used tto be one of the thinnest girls out at one stage now am most likely to be the fattest!!!! Am going to hang on and look for an outfit tuesday befor i go out! am going to see if  can lose any more befor then!! then head to somewhere cheap and cheerful like tk max or primark for a dress!!! 

The worst thing is am going to meeting all my boyfriends friends, i've met all his guy friend and that, but all his friends from uni and school anre coming and they all want to meet me!!! So they be juddging me and looking me up and down to see how fat i am!!! So am dreading it big time!!!!


I want to cry, its his 21st so icant even think of an excuse not to go :(

Life is suckie when your fat :(

kisses xxx